feelings of a grown up child
Lately I have been feeling horrible. I feel sad. Upset. Depressed.
I think part of it is because I have had some family here in the last two weeks and they leave me. First the Davis family. We had so much fun. I was the happiest girl around.
Then they left.
Then the Skillmans (my second parents) stopped by for the day. We went to PCC and had a blast.
Then they left.
I feel left behind.
It's not at all their fault, that's just how it feels.
I miss family. Friends. I miss Mesquite. (as silly as that sounds). I am forever grateful for them though. That they would spend their time with me.
Then the other thing making me feel horrible...
Some one asked me how I was doing. I have never been one of those people to lie and say "great" when I'm not feeling it. So I said "ticked and upset".
He then proceeded to ask "What in the world does Sarah have to be upset about? You don't have two kids (like him), you don't go to school, you don't have a job. Your life is easy".
For all the women who are reading this, you know that is the most WRONG thing you could possibly say to a "ticked off" woman.
Just because I don't have kids, does that mean I can't be stressed out about things? Or upset about situations in my life? Are you kidding?
On one hand, this made me furious. I had some very vulgar things to say back and if it weren't for my friend who stepped in, these remarks would've come out at him.
Then on the other hand this made me feel sick. Who does that? Who is that insensitive? I have never met some one who is truly that horrible. So thanks to him, I feel worse as ever.
I want to get one thing straight, I am not posting this so you would feel bad for me. I am simply posting this because you NEVER know what goes on behind closed doors. We need to always be careful of what we say to others.