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We went to town showing Ryan around. Literally, we went to town. First we stopped by the zoo. We have heard great things about it so off we went. 

It was a lot of fun. Of course I was the only one screaming with excitement. I think the boys had fun. 

They guys were either really bored or they were just very tired. After the giraffes they hit their end. I felt like a little kid dragging tired mom and dad around. 

The "slap happy" stage

I think I hit the slap happy stage too.. because I could not stop laughing at this. I thought it was the funniest thing I've ever seen. 

Later we went down to the strip on Waikiki. We wanted to go because I had found this awesome looking aquarium. It was one of those you can walk though and sharks, manta rays and tropical fish would swim right over you. It sounded like so much free fun. So when we got to the address, there was nothing there.

Ready for the embarrassing part? The aquarium has been gone for over four years. Ya. Four years. 

So we walked the strip instead. 

I almost love walking down the strip. It kinda reminds me of home. Smokes being blown in your face, people offering you weed, and lovely ladies on the corner. Home sweet home. 

that was our trip downtown.. more about ryans visit will come. im not even close to done. 


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