i dont think ive ever felt this bad about myself.
ya, i know.. suck it up sarah.
i dont fit into anything anymore.
i dont eat right.
i have horrible thoughts about myself all day long.
i have no self confidence.
i compare myself to everyone.
chris and i have so much to figure out.
where are we going to go to finish school?
how will we afford rent this month?
what about dinner tonight?
med school? pt school?
i sit at home and think about all of these things.
i think about life.
its too hard to handle right now.
ya i know it will get harder but im talking about the now. it stinks right now.
i know what i need to change.
i know what i need to do.. its just hard to get motivated.
how do you get motivated when no one is there to cheer you on?
im sick of waiting for things to happen.
and being too lazy to do anything about it.
if anyone has any advice or words of encouragement, i sure could use them about now.